I haven’t written a post for a few months now. No real reason that I can use as an good excuse, more many bad excuses – lazy, went on holiday, can’t find motivation.
That last point is what has prompted me to write this post. Lately I have been feeling very unmotivated to do anything. I don’t know if it’s post holiday blues or I just feel like me life has come to a stand still.
When I really think about it, that just seems crazy. As mentioned, I’ve just been on a 4 week holiday to the UK, I recently moved house and I bought a brand new car. For most people, this would be more than enough to shake things up. For me, it’s done nothing.
I guess the holiday was a huge event in my life as I had been dreaming of heading to the UK for years. To finally go and see it in all it’s glory was amazing.
The new car was exciting but the shine has pretty much worn off. Now I’m just left with the extra costs involved that I previously didn’t have… petrol, rego etc..
The moving part was more a hassle than an exciting. My partner and I rent our home (for now) and were told by our agent that the owners wanted to move back in. We could have been real jerks and told them we weren’t moving until our lease was up in December but we aren’t like that. So we found a new rental and moved a couple of weeks ago. It has kind of stuffed up our plans to be honest. We had planned to buy our own home at the end of next year, when our lease was up for the second year. Now we will be faced with the decision to buy or rent again in the middle of next year. On top of that, moving into another rental, paying someone else’s mortgage is starting to play on my nervous. I’m at a point in my life where I want to own my own home. I want to be able to paint walls if I think they need it. I don’t want to have to panic every time we put a tiny little mark on a wall. I guess it’s every ones dream to own their own home, so I know I’m not alone. It just can get you down at times.
So basically, even with all these things happening, I still can’t find the motivation to enjoy it all. I just feel something is lacking and I have no idea what. So I’m thinking of starting a hobby. A real, time consuming hobby. Don’t get me wrong, I find plenty to do (go out for dinner, enjoy a little wine between friends) but I want something that is consistent and fulfilling. I have no idea what said hobby will be yet, that part I’m still investigating. In fact, it could very well be writing this blog a lot more often (here’s hoping!). But even if I do start writing more, I think I want something else to occupy my mind. It might be volunteering or something crafty. Time will tell and I will be sure to keep you updated!
I do just want to say that whilst this post sounds a little negative, it’s not all doom and gloom. I really do love my life and am blessed with some amazing people! Sometimes it’s just good to get the negativity out!
I wrote a post a few weeks ago about how I am going to try and save for my O/S holiday. Well, I’m not doing that great. I had a bit of a bad week just gone as my sister was here and I kind of went a bit overboard with the spending. Not ideal, given I have less than 2 months until we leave. But I honestly feel it was worth it. I’ve said before that I don’t get to see my sisters all that often, so when one comes to visit, I don’t want to waste that time doing nothing. We didn’t do anything crazy extravagant, but we did go out Friday night then went to a Aussie rules game on Saturday. It was a great weekend and worth every penny.
But from now on, I really need to avoid any weekend like that again. It’s so hard though, this Saturday I’ve got plans to have a little wine between friends at a local pub. I know I will want to spend money on wine but I’m just going to have to be sensible and stick to a budget. I can still go out and enjoy a glass or two, but that will have to be it. I just need to keep thinking about the AMAZING shopping I will do when away!
So here is the first bit of ‘personal’ information I’m going to share with you. I am not good at saving. Never have been and probably never will be. I like to shop, there I said it. Whilst I don’t live outside my means, I certainly don’t have a huge pile of cash stashed under my mattress. Now don’t get me wrong, I am a thrifty shopper. I love a good bargain and will never spend more on an item than I think it’s worth. But those small $10-$20 purchases add up. So while I may have an amazing array of accessories and a wardrobe I’m very proud of, my savings account is looking very sad and lonely.
This has come to light due to the fact I am heading overseas in exactly 88 days. I’ve never really had a goal like this, so I’ve never really made the effort to save. Yes I want to buy a house but deep down I know it’s not realistic at the moment so I don’t commit to saving. Now I have to knuckle down and do it, I’m even less of a fan.
There are many reasons I don’t love this ‘saving’ lifestyle. I am not very good at doing nothing. I do enjoy sitting on the couch after work watching bad TV with a glass of wine. However I do not enjoy doing this for my whole weekend. I need to be doing something, anything. Once the house is cleaned, shopping done and all my washing is up to date, I am at a loss as to what to do. Normally we would head out for dinner or drinks or maybe go out for a nice lunch. This is all on the ‘no list’ which leaves me wondering… what do I do with all this time?! There are only so many times you can search the internet for something entertaining and we are running out of DVD’s to watch.
I know there are many activities I could engage in that will cost me little to no money, I just need to get in the mind set. Plus the thought of all the shopping and eating out I will be able to do while on my holiday is the best incentive. I feel I will rely on my friends a lot over the next few months to help keep me busy, so friends are warned!
I have to admit though, having all this spare time on my hands has allowed me to do a lot of stuff that has always been on my ‘to do’ list, but I always felt I was too busy. This blog is one of those. I’m also reading a lot more and even more impressive, I’ve started to exercise (my relationship with exercise needs a whole other post).
So whilst I may not being enjoying a little wine between friends as regularly, I certainly will see the benefits in 88 days’ time! Hopefully I will be able to write a post in a few weeks with some amazing tips of how to save, but right now, I’ve got nothing other than avoid temptation, don’t leave the house! Please, any tips would be very helpful…
Cheers and wish me luck,